He has been almost silent for the past 2 years.   Hardly a word or post accept when one of our leading community members passed suddenly.  Then out of the blue he reminds me of his true character.  He proclaimes himself to be an ass and insults me on a post thread that went KP. 

I had just began to let my guard down and was starting to feel sorry for him.  I had been silent and had worked very hard to not degrade  his charactor.  Most of my journal entries focused on what I did wrong in our relationship out of a missguided respect for him.   Never again.   

That whole concept of out of sight, out of mind was working for me.   However, he is no longer out of sight or out of mind and I am a little pissed.   I promised myself that I would not allow myself to feel anything over this man ever again.  Now here I am angry enough to do something stupid.  UGHhhhh...   

I didn't realize his silence had been such a blessing.