Want Crave Desire

What do I need?  Hell, I don’t know.  I know what I crave, what I desire, and what I want….  I desire a Dominant that can look me in the eye and know that I am hurting; no matter how much I hid it.  I want a Dominant that can put his hand in the small of my back and make me feel protected.  I want a Dominant that knows what I need, and considers what I want.  I crave a Dominant that is stronger than me.  I want a Dominant that will let me be a brat on occasion.  I want a Dominant that can make my knees quiver in fear and desire with a look or gentile touch.  I desire a Dominant who gives me goose bumps when his warm breath caresses the back of my neck.  I want a Dominant that is observant and careful.  I want a Dominant that loves me for the strong person I am.  I want a Dominant that loves me for being fragile.   I want a Dominant that loves me in spite of all the scares.  I desire a Dominant that is in fact a dominant, not a dominant that thinks he is dominant.   I want a Dominant that listens to my voice and not just my words.  I want a Dominant that can take care of me and protect me from the world and sometimes myself.  I want a Dominant that on occasion, beats me until my tears shake me to the very core.  I want a Dominant that knows me better than I know myself.   I want a Dominant that holds my hand because he wants to.  I desire a Dominant that pushes my limits, and rewards me for taking what he give me. I want a Dominant that is able to balance pain with passion.  I desire a Dominant that can torture yet sooth with gentile caress.  I crave a Dominant that indulges me little desires on occasion because it makes him happy to see me smile.  I desire a Dominant that holds me after a scene because he knows I need it.  I want a Dominant that gives as well as he gets. I want a Dominant that loves to spoil me with affection.  I want a Dominant that is my protector.  I want a Dominant that is mine as much as I am his.    I crave an Alpha, a true dominant, a man of his word and honorable person that lives life to the best of his ability.  I want a Dominant that knows the difference between domination and domineering.  I desire a Dominant and not a boy. 

I know what I want, because of my past; I know what I don’t want because of it too.  When I find Him, then I will have found my Master.  Only then will I be able to call myself a slave.