Doing some house cleaning and came across the jewlery box I had placed all my "cuffs and collars" in. It dawned on me that I had either made or bought the materials to make every single one of them. What the fuck was I thinking. He never even bought me a collar! He just recycled an old one of his for my first "training" collar, but it was too big and I ended up purchasing silver chain and findings to recreate it in a more flattering length. The rest I made or purchased through Things Remembered....I am such a gullible goof ball. That alone should have been a sign that he really didn't value me.
There are a few missing, but these alone probably cost me about $ 300.00. Not that the pricetag is relevant. However, seeing me as a valuable possession that deserved something beautiful to represent the commitment we had made is a big issue. I will try to find a picture of the one that I made of Swarovski crystals and the replica , as well as a picture of the only "collar" he ever gave me.
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